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In 2000, I was pregnant with my second child. My father, who was my rock, passed when I was 16 after a three-year cancer battle. My now husband and I had our first child our senior year of high school and married a few years later. I had just landed my first position that required my college degree that I had worked and sacrificed so much for. My husband had also just started his first job out of college. We were still in a financially tough spot, in our mid-twenties and struggling in our relationship and with past traumatic experiences. To say things were tough was an understatement.
To fully understand my story, we have to go back to my childhood in the small town of Hanko in Finland. As long as I can remember, I was criticized about my body. This started my self-depreciation and doubt that I would ever be good enough to be loved by a man, much less to be enough for anything else. I was simply the wrong shape and size to be considered for such a life. I truly believed that I wasn’t worthy of love.
On May 22, 2023, I died of respiratory and heart failure from stage 3 sepsis due to an undiagnosed gall stone. I had been struggling with a mystery illness that had seen me collapse in a grocery store on May 9th 2023, and almost again on May 16th. Both episodes resulted in emergency room visits, but I had been misdiagnosed and my case slipped through the cracks due to a DNA mutation related to the numbing of pain.
I had a near-death experience in 1999. I careered off a mountain while hiking and was (for a period of approximately 30 seconds) facing almost certain death or catastrophic injury. Despite every sinew in my body keeping me upright and alive as I lost control, my “final” 5-10 seconds were “out-worldly.”
I was on my bed. I was done eating but something in my body felt out of place. I lay down to realize that there is food inside my lungs and my body was convulsing in order to counteract the circumstances and prevail to save the lungs.
I started to feel cold, feel a chill in my side, my hands, arms, legs and fingers, as if something of a vital fluid was unable to pulse with the reciprocating brain input.
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