At 61 years old — 2002 had lithium overdose due to V.A. hospital not properly monitoring lithium level. I had two experiences this time. I am not sure if they are joined or separate events. If they are separate, I don’t know how much time lapsed between them.

1. I saw myself as a two year old baby boy floating around in a beautiful blue sky - so happy and care free. As the sun shined through the blue sky, it created a rainbow of beautiful rainbow colors. I was so happy and so free. I saw a flock of beautiful eagles flying overhead. Laughing and playing, I flapped my arms in a flying motion so I could fly up and touch one. I never touched one.

2. It was a darkness as dark as the center of a piece of coal. And I was the same two year old little boy. I was so free and so happy as I played in that darkness. Like before, it was fantastic to be so happy and care free. I saw a bright star high up in the sky. I started pushing myself up with my feet. The darkness was so thick. I held out my right arm with my index finger extended so I could touch that beautiful star, and like before, everything just seemed to disappear before I could touch anything.